52 in 2014 • Week 12

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

03.21.2014

I haven't picked up my camera much lately. So little actually, that I'm sure there will be gaps in this 52 project. Life hasn't gotten especially busy lately in terms of finding time to pick up the camera or blog, but it has been busy and exhausting mentally. When we have some quiet time to ourselves, I really just want to be alone or be with you and Papa. Picking up the camera has been the last thing on my mind and it's refreshing, but I miss capturing little moments like these. You are so determined to do things on your own these days. I know it's normal for a two year old, but it makes things difficult at times. You want to put your own socks on, but we're running late. You don't want to hold Mama's hand, but we're in a parking lot full of cars. You want to carry the basket at the grocery store, but it's too heavy. I love to watch you bask in pride when you accomplish something on your own. I wish I could throw practicality out the window and let you do things for yourself all the time, but I think it's good for you learn to accept help early because there are going to be things in life that you might not be able to accomplish on your own. I know that you are capable of anything. I know that you are strong and intelligent and confident, but support can really make a difference. I really like to be by your side, helping you make it up those steps, keeping you safe while we walk on the busy sidewalks, putting your socks on while you're still small enough to fit in my lap. With every new feat you accomplish, I'm reminded of a quote I read long before you were born about children not waiting for you. You grow and live and love whether I'm ready for it or not, whether I have my priorities straight or not. My biggest goal in life is to mother in a way that leaves no room for regrets. You are my most important legacy, little woman.

'You are the gull, Jo, strong and wild, fond of the storm and the wind, flying far out to sea, and happy all alone.'
Louisa May Alcott

6 comments:

  1. This is so beautiful and I feel like I could have written it myself. The part about the socks is right on the most. They want to do everything on their own now but it makes everything take so much longer. In my head I'm frustrated and I want to just do it myself so it will happen quicker but then I remind myself that this is a good and she just wants to be proud of herself.

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    1. Thanks, Tina! I try to let Ev put her own socks on and things like that when we're just lounging around the house as a fun game. . . it seems to make it easier when I ask her if I can do it because we're in a hurry. I really love how proud two year olds are of themselves though. I hope she's always that confident in herself.

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  2. That was beautiful. Described so well.

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  3. oh wow - what beautiful words and a stunning portrait that captures this age so well!!!! just love it!

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